Running Out Of Self-Control

Well, there’s been quite a lag in my posting here. Honestly, I feel quite broken right now and haven’t had the spirit to write. Instead, I sit here trying to sort out things and glue myself back together.

Meanwhile, I’ve been listening a lot to Journey’s Raised on Radio. I can’t believe I used to hate this album. It’s probably one of the most beautiful Journey has written. And now I understand it more than ever.

The past few weeks can pretty much be summed up in two categories: travel and work. Sometimes both together. It’s been crazy at the office, and although I’ve been good with deadlines, I’m beginning to feel myself drown in my articles again. Weekends have been spent in Long Island, Boston, Washington, D.C. and upstate. I haven’t been spending as much time at home, and it shows. I am also drowning in my living situation, which would be better if I had some money. But I don’t. I’m drowning in brokeness.

Maybe one day I’ll write about my travels. I just don’t have the mental energy to do so right now. I need to somehow come up for air. I need to be good to myself when nobody else will.

I need chocolate.

2 Responses to “Running Out Of Self-Control”

  1. Caitlin says:

    It’s so funny how you can dislike certain music and then go back and relate to it so much at a later time and fall in love with it. It’s happened to me so many times. I hope things start to look up for you.

  2. Yuri says:

    Don’t feel broken, remember, you have much to feel good about. 🙂

    If you need to talk, I’m always here to help. 🙂

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