Archive for November, 2005

Give Blood

Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005

I had to call The New York Blood Center and take my name off the donor list permanently for both blood and bone marrow, because over the past five months, I’ve had Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, a blood cancer, and will no longer be able to donate.

Since I was of giving age (17), I’ve donated blood. I was always on the donation end – never did I think I would be on the receiving end. I’ve received over ten tranfusions so far, and there was always the slight possibility I would have needed a bone marrow transplant. There are patients a lot worse off than I have been – hundreds of transfusions, and a scramble to find a bone marrow donor match. Some find no match at all.

Since I am no longer able to give, I’m going to do my part and urge others to give blood and take part in the bone marrow registry. New York is always short on donors, and now they have one less person to give blood.

So please, in this season of giving, please consider giving blood if you haven’t (or haven’t in a while), and consider taking part in the bone marrow registry (some people think this involves bone marrow extraction, and it scares them off, but it doesn’t – they just test the blood you donate). You’ll be saving a lot of lives.

Thank you, and have a Happy Thanksgiving!

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Friday, November 18th, 2005

I saw you across a crowded room. Among all the others that were
there, The lights seemed to shine down on you alone. I knew
then I had to have you for my own.

Willingly, you came with me to my home. From the car, I carried
you & threw open the door. Looking at you ,I admire your body,
your well shaped legs, and breasts.

Slowly I remove what wraps, around your body so tightly,
fitting you like a glove. Exposing your tender pale skin. From
your neck I remove your charms, and carry you off in my arms,to
the warm water that awaits.

The water cascades down your neck, flowing over your soft
breasts then, making your legs glisten with wetness. Droplets
of water cover your taut skin. My hands rub your body, ummmm
running them threw the beads of water. Making them trickle down
off your body.

I place my fingers inside you. You are warm and moist, so
ready. I carry your still dripping body, to a laying place, so
that I can put inside you what was well prepared to enter you
before we even came through the door.

As soon as I lay you down your legs spread open wide. You are
ready now and so am I. I put a little in slowly at first,
getting a feel for how much you can take in. I put in more, you
take it willingly.

In anticipation, faster and faster I put it in, pushing it in
deeply as far as I can, until I can’t put any more in, you are
so tight. With your legs wrapped tightly, not wanting to
release any of it, I make you so hot for a very long time,
until your sweet juices escape from within.

Then I taste you, with my tongue at first, your skin is so soft
and tender. I taste more of you with my mouth, you are so hot
and moist, you taste so good. Your juices coating my mouth,
making me drool in anticipation of eating you more, with every
taste.

“Oh yes”, I say to you, “I must say Grace!”

“Thank God for this Butterball Turkey, Amen.”

(You ought to be ashamed of those thoughts you were having)

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

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Thursday, November 17th, 2005

My chemo and other medications have changed my body chemistry, so now I smell sickeningly sweet, like maple syrup, no matter how much I shower or try to cover it up.

I AM A WALKING WAFFLE

should be proud.

I’m with Sarah on this one…. <i>dayum</i> is this true!

Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
Your Birthdate: December 17

You tend to find yourself lucky – both in business and in life.
And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others.
You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented.
Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage.

Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck

Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all

Your power color: Bronze

Your power symbol: Half Moon

Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

A Post of Thanksgiving

Tuesday, November 15th, 2005

I know I’ve been bad (OK, horrible) at updating this journal, but this is going to my final post about my cancer.

As of Sunday, I officially finished my sixth and last round of chemotherapy for Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I am no longer a cancer patient – I am now a survivor. And I wanted to say thank you all for being there for me during the biggest struggle of my life.

Although I’ve been in remission since September, I still had a long road ahead of me… tiring chemotherapy treatments, blood transfusions, weeks in the hospital, sleepless nights, and a lot of pain.

Most may say that cancer is a burden, and something that should have never happened to me. I thought so too in the beginning, but as I rested in my hospital bed the last night of treatment, I had a revelation.

My cancer was a blessing.

When I realized that, I was the happiest I’ve been in a long, long time. I was in a spiritual rut for a long time, and earlier this year I cried and prayed after listen to Michael W. Smith’s song Place in This World.

I was going through a rough time at school, I was confused at the direction my life was heading, and I was questioning my relationship with others.

Perhaps this was God’s answer to my prayer. A strange one at that, but it was still an answer. I’ve found my place in this world. I’ve found out who my true friends are. I’ve discovered the kindness of strangers. I’ve become a better, stronger person. I’ve begun living again.

Thank you to everyone who has been with me through this journey and everything you’ve done for me. Whether it was a simple phone call to ask me how I was feeling, a card, a hug, a bottle of Dr. Pepper, or a shoulder to cry on, it meant the world to me. You’ve all made a huge difference in my life and the best that I can hope for is that I will be there for you as much as you’ve been there for me when you need a friend.

What’s next for me? Well, I’m going to rest up and get my immune system back in order. I can’t wait to get back to my old activities again. I want to visit people, go to the city, and live life to the fullest. God’s given me a new lease on life and I’m going to take it by the reins.

Oh, and I still don’t know whether I’m going to grow my hair back. I’m kind of digging the bald look, even though it’s getting a bit chilly. It will be interesting to see what color and texture it will return as.

All that was supposed to go in my cancer journal is going in a book – and I’ve got a lot written. It’s going to be a humorous book – none of that wah-wah-I-feel-bad-for-myself material. Hopefully it will inspire others and make cancer patients feel better.

I’m glad this is over. This is one Thanksgiving I am going to be sure to celebrate 🙂


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A Post Of Thanksgiving

Tuesday, November 15th, 2005

I know I’ve been bad (OK, horrible) at updating this journal, but this is going to my final post about my cancer.

As of Sunday, I officially finished my sixth and last round of chemotherapy for Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I am no longer a cancer patient – I am now a survivor. And I wanted to say thank you all for being there for me during the biggest struggle of my life.

Although I’ve been in remission since September, I still had a long road ahead of me… tiring chemotherapy treatments, blood transfusions, weeks in the hospital, sleepless nights, and a lot of pain.

Most may say that cancer is a burden, and something that should have never happened to me. I thought so too in the beginning, but as I rested in my hospital bed the last night of treatment, I had a revelation.

My cancer was a blessing.

When I realized that, I was the happiest I’ve been in a long, long time. I was in a spiritual rut for a long time, and earlier this year I cried and prayed after listen to Michael W. Smith’s song Place in This World.

I was going through a rough time at school, I was confused at the direction my life was heading, and I was questioning my relationship with others.

Perhaps this was God’s answer to my prayer. A strange one at that, but it was still an answer. I’ve found my place in this world. I’ve found out who my true friends are. I’ve discovered the kindness of strangers. I’ve become a better, stronger person. I’ve begun living again.

Thank you to everyone who has been with me through this journey and everything you’ve done for me. Whether it was a simple phone call to ask me how I was feeling, a card, a hug, a bottle of Dr. Pepper, or a shoulder to cry on, it meant the world to me. You’ve all made a huge difference in my life and the best that I can hope for is that I will be there for you as much as you’ve been there for me when you need a friend.

What’s next for me? Well, I’m going to rest up and get my immune system back in order. I can’t wait to get back to my old activities again. I want to visit people, go to the city, and live life to the fullest. God’s given me a new lease on life and I’m going to take it by the reins.

Oh, and I still don’t know whether I’m going to grow my hair back. I’m kind of digging the bald look, even though it’s getting a bit chilly. It will be interesting to see what color and texture it will return as.

All that was supposed to go in my cancer journal is going in a book – and I’ve got a lot written. It’s going to be a humorous book – none of that wah-wah-I-feel-bad-for-myself material. Hopefully it will inspire others and make cancer patients feel better.

I’m glad this is over. This is one Thanksgiving I am going to be sure to celebrate :o)

iTunes Meme

Sunday, November 6th, 2005

Open itunes or windows media player to answer the following. go to your library.

HOW MANY SONGS? 1668

SORT BY SONG TITLE
first – (Flesh and Blood) Sacrifice – Poison
last – Zanzibar – Neal Schon

SORT BY TIME
first – (0.12) Jessi On Drugs – Saved By The Bell
last – (17:32) Shine On You Crazy Diamond – Pink Floyd

SORT BY ALBUM
first – 16 Strokes (The Best of Billy Squire) – Billy Squire
last – Yourself or Someone Like You – Matchbox 20

TOP FIVE MOST PLAYED SONGS
1. Just What I Needed – The Cars
2. Happy To Give – Journey
3. Caught Up In You – .38 Special
4. Why Can’t This Night Go On Forever – Journey
5. No Matter What – Def Leppard

FIRST SONG THAT COMES UP ON SHUFFLE
Santa Claus is Coming to Town – Bruce Springsteen

find “sex.” how many songs come up? 3
find “death.” how many songs come up? 0
find “love.” how many songs come up? 134

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Saturday, November 5th, 2005

It’s amazing how five months could change 22 years of thinking, dreaming, aspirations, and relationships.