Archive for April, 2004


Friday, April 30th, 2004

On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first twenty songs on the list (no matter how cheesy or embarrassing), and write down your favourite line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line. Then, have your friends comment and see if they know the songs.

1. “Now it’s your turn, girl, to cry”
2. “Ever since we met you’ve had a hold on me”
3. “I wanna taste you but your lips are venemous poison”
4. “So kiss me while there’s still a little time”
5. “But I’ve grown up and now I’m over you”
6. “Some day, some way, all very soon, you’ll end long nights chasing the moon”
7. “Maybe it’s the way you touch me with the warmth of the sun, maybe it’s the way you smile at me and I come all undone”
8. “Any fool can see they’re fallin’, I gotta make you understand”
9. “You try to say you’re sorry at least a hundred times, but she replays mistakes you’ve made with a photographic mind”
10. “That little faggot got his own jet airplane, that little faggot he’s a millionaire”
11. “I could say that’s the way it goes, and I can pretend that you won’t know that I’m lying”
12. “Like a fool I fell in love with you, turned my whole world upside down”
13 “You’re the only one, the only one I love”
14. “Our baby fell out of the window, you think that her head would be split”
15. “If I ever made you feel second best, girl, I’m sorry I was blind”
16. “He thinks it’s not Kosher, fundamentally he can’t take it”
17. “Tell your friends that you stole my heart, but you’ll get a piece of my soul”
18. “Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn leaves no reprieve”
19. “Would you stay if she promised you heaven?”
20. “It’s better to have lost at love, then never to have loved at all”


Saturday, April 24th, 2004

I have pictures to prove that the M, N, and D trains are up at 207th Yard! Ha, be jealous 🙂

Steve is too damned cute.

He hands me a pile of pictures today that he took up at 207th Yard. Redbirds, work trains, the SMEE museum set… then I get to a picture of three R-44s in a row. I look at them, and said, “Wait a second, the N and M trains aren’t supposed to be up at 207th.” He told me to look again:

A train, N train, M train. ANM. My initials.

He also did A train, N train, C train for my website. Could he get any cuter than that?

Well, obviously he can. He then said, “I saw a D train up at 207th, also.” I look at the next picture, of six R-32s and R-38s, in a row.

A train, M train, A train, N train, D train, A train. My name, spelled out by trains!

One day, when he was done doing what he had to do at work, he decided to sign up the trains as the letters in my name. He even hooked up the chains so the trains would look nice 🙂 One of the train inspectors even asked him what the heck he was doing.

Ah, pictures forthcoming, but I have to scan them.

Too damned cute 🙂

I’m hot and bothered (but not like that)

Thursday, April 22nd, 2004

Interesting conversation with (Kathleen) at dinner tonight.

Kathleen: So, are you babysitting Saturday?
Me: Yes
Kathleen: Stop by my room after you get off the train, so you can meet Nick
Me: I’ll call so I don’t, uh, interrupt anything
Kathleen: My roommate’s gone, so we have all weekend for that

::We continue eating::

Kathleen: I won’t be able to walk on Monday

::long pause, then I throw my napkin at her, grossed out::

Kathleen: I don’t know why I just said that. I seriously don’t know where that came from!

Anyways … I’ve been keeping myself busy here.

Saturday, I met up with Steve in the city 🙂 We ate breakfast, then decided we were going to chase the March of Dimes (MOD) nostalgia trains for photographs. However, he surprised me with tickets at Grand Central, so we actually went on the trains, which was a lot of fun. It was different from the past trips because they were the SMEE set (Redbirds and the like for you non-railfans). So, we had lots of fun on that and took plenty of pictures. My favorite shot of the day. It was funny, because it was the MOD trips where Steve and I first met, but this time, he wasn’t the motorman (or, as I thought, the hot conductor, hehe). I also saw a bunch of my friends, which was cool. Overall, a very nice day 🙂 Steve waited with me at Grand Central for my train, then I babysat that night.

The rest of my shots from the MOD trip.
Steve and I at Whitlock Ave

Sunday, I met Steve after he got off of work and we had a picnic at the park, including lots of silly fun, thanks to a moo tube and a bottle of bubbles. He also picked me up and scared the shit out of me and I started screaming and flailing, while he laughed because he knew I wasn’t going anywhere. It was such a beautiful day out, and too bad it couldn’t last longer. I hardly get to see him as is!

Tuesday was Ram production night, and I was totally unprepared for it, being that we had two weeks off. Around 5 a.m., the room started spinning and my eyes started to cross, so I had to take two 20-minute power naps to get me through the rest of production. The issue came out great though, I’m very pleased with it.

Most of my major projects are done; I just have a 3-4 page paper and four final exams, three which are multiple-choice. I did a Powerpoint presentation in Dr. Wachtel’s class, but I accidently wrote over the Zip disk and lost the whole presentation. I was pretty damned upset, but he gave me an extension until Monday with no penalty. That was pretty nice of him. I managed to redo the whole presentation today, so I’m glad that’s over and done with. It’s a presentation based on the poem in the 42nd Street-Port Authority subway station, complete with pictures, sound and video to narrate the poem:

So tired.
If late,
Get fired.
Why bother?
Why the pain?
Just go home,
Do it again.

Afterwards, I went to the New York Botanical Garden and took pictures of flowers. My flower pics!

Note to Fordham girl wearing white pants: You should not be wearing tight white pants. Your butt is way too big, and I especially do not want to have it in my face as you’re walking up the stairs in front of me. Not only that, wear the correct underwear. You know, underwear that people cannot see. Bright white thongs and tight white pants are a no-no. Don’t you read the fashion magazines? Well, obviously you do, because you were wearing a fake tan, highlighted hair, Steve Madden shoes and carrying a Juicy Couture tote bag. However, it seems you missed the pants advice. Please, please spare me and the rest of the Fordham population of the horror ever again.

It’s Keith Partridge’s Birthday!

Monday, April 12th, 2004

Happy Birthday to you,
I think I love you
Happy Birthday Keith Partridge
Happy Birthday to you


Monday, April 12th, 2004

You know, my last Crazy Amanda Dream © reminded me that I’ve had lots of crazy train dreams in the past.

Back in my junior year of high school I had a dream I was standing on the tracks in the LIRR Babylon train yard. There were trains coming from all different directions and I kept jumping from track to track, trying to avoid being hit. I saw this little tunnel, just my size, and crawled inside it and crouched, to hide from the trains. Suddenly, this itty bitty LIRR train comes out of nowhere and hits me in the butt.

There were plenty of train dreams after that, and you can find it in the beginning days of my LiveJournal: My LiveJournal in 2002, when I originally started it as a dream journal

All entries prior to April 1, 2003 were Crazy Amanda Dreams ©. Read and be amused. Or scared. Or both.

Those dreams…

Monday, April 12th, 2004

his week was good, very good.

I came home Tuesday. Steve met me after work, then we went to the zoo and on the carousel at Central Park 🙂 We then ate dinner and he waited with me at Penn until my train came. Most of the week I spent cleaning the basement and getting rid of a lot of my shit, but the most notable points were ice cream with The Dude () on Wednesday, then going out for a manicure/pedicure/hair with Andra and Alyse on Saturday. It was a fun, relaxing break, for the most part.

Easter was good, albeit the family dystfunctions. The Easter Bunny still came for me too… with Jelly Bellies! Had an Easter egg hunt with the kids and dinner with the fam, then came back to school last night.

The trip from Islip to the Bronx took so much longer than usual last night. Took a train from Islip to Babylon, switched at Babylon for the local (ugh!) train to Penn Station. Since it was a local, I got into Penn much later than I had estimated, then there were diversions on the IRT, so it took a while for the train to come, then of course, the train waited in the Times Square station forever. By the time I got to Grand Central Terminal, I had missed my 11:30 Metro-North back to Fordham by 15 minutes, and had to wait until the 12:30. Bah. Got home and talked to Steve for a while, despite phone difficulties. Hopefully, I’ll get to see him tomorrow 🙂

Time for another Crazy Amanda Dream ©

I was on the Long Island Railroad with Allison and it pulled into the station, where we had to switch trains. However, it wasn’t another LIRR train, but a train. The platform was in a “v” shape and horribly narrow, so Allison decided it would be best if we walked the length of the LIRR train before crossing over to the 6 train. People started pouring into the LIRR train from the stopped 6 train, so Allison got far ahead of me. She left the car, then the doors shut and she was shouting for me to get off the train, but I couldn’t because there were so many people. The LIRR train started to move again, with me on it, so I screamed at them to stop, but no one was listening. There was only one open door – the storm door at the front of the train. I ran and leaped out the open door while the train was moving, then started running down the tracks before the train caught up to me. Suddely, everything went black, and I found myself on the dark platform, lying down. A woman was above me, telling me I got hit by the train. I told the woman I had to get home, and got up and left. Suddenly I was in my living room, changing the curtains, and Grandma was telling me I was hanging them wrong. I turned around and the living room changed to my living room from my old house, and the curtains changed color to maroon.

Baby pictures

Sunday, April 11th, 2004

I redid my hell just for Jim Price

Friday, April 9th, 2004

Metropolitan Transportation Authority
Circle I Limbo

People with horrible grammar
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

People from Long Island
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Ronald McDonald
Circle IV Rolling Weights

Thebaud Hall
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Richard Simmons
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

People who chew with their mouth open
Circle VII Burning Sands

George W. Bush
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Jim Price
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

Disturbing dream…

Friday, April 9th, 2004

was driving down Southern State Parkway in Queens when traffic began to back up horribly. I flipped on the radio, and it said there was a major accident coming up. I looked over at the westbound lanes, and there were no cars. I finally creep up to the accident site, and there are a few cars that smashed into the median. Police were everywhere, and all the accident victims were walking around, bloodied and screaming. They were all wearing bright yellow masks, similar to Friday the 13th masks, and their clothes were torn. But the screaming was horrible, absolutely horrible.

I pull over off the exit, which is jam packed with cars trying to get off the highway. There are Chinese people handing out restaurant menus on the off-ramp as cars are trying to squeeze by. I make a right turn onto Kingsbridge Road (I guess I was now in the Bronx?). The traffic was stopped from here to eternity, so I got my bike out of the trunk and decided to ride my bike home to Islip. The only way I could get out of the traffic was to ride through one of the department stores, so I put two yellow grocery bags full of food on the handlebars and began peddling through the store and almost knock over a woman. The only way my bike would fit out the exit doors would be to find a handicapped exit, so I found one, and this security guard came out of nowhere and yelled at me for using the door, even though I wasn’t in a wheelchair. When I exited the store, it was Islip, so I pedaled home.

When I got home, I called my sister to tell her I would be going to my nephew’s hockey game and concert, but she told me not to bother because the accident stopped all westbound traffic from Queens to Suffolk County. A call suddenly comes in on my cell phone, knocking her off. It’s a boy I went to St. Mary’s with and haven’t talked to in eight years, and he’s crying. I ask him what was the matter, and he said he needed someone to talk to. I told him I could pick him up and we’d go get coffee and talk. He gave me some weird, bogus address in Brentwood and he told me he’d see me at 7 p.m.

My answers

Thursday, April 8th, 2004

: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: “Day in Woodside? He realized, however,” – The Cold and Hot Winter by Johanna Hurwitz
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? My printer/scanner/fax thingy
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? “The Cosby Show” on Nick at Nite
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 3:27
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 3:30
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Birds chriping and the whirring of my computer tower
7: When did you last step outside? What were you doing? Last night I threw out a box of garbage
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at? SubTalk
9: What are you wearing? A pair of old jeans, my green and light blue flowered low cut shirt, a grey hooded sweatshirt, and bare feet
10: Did you dream last night? Look back two entries
11: When did you last laugh? About 10 minutes ago, when Kathleen () was making sexual comments at my sister’s cat, Pippin
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in? A poster of two cats smoking in a bathroom
13: Seen anything weird lately? Kathleen demanding that Pippin stop undressing her with his eyes
14: What do you think of this quiz? Different
15: What is the last film you saw? Good Bye, Berlin!
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? My brownstone in Manhattan
17: Tell me something about you that I don’t know: I really do think Keith Patridge is kind of hot
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? Enough of all this war shit
19: Do you like to dance? Nope
20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years? Power-crazy nutcase
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Julia
21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Jonathan
22: Would you ever consider living abroad? Italy, Ireland, England, or Spain. Maybe Australia.